My way to get better...The Three L's breifly explained and referenced...

Life.
Love.
Lust.

I enable myself on these three L's in my personal philosophy of life and bring myself into the light of my own ascension.
If in doubt, I can only curse myself into pain and angst by losing myself and my reason of purpose. There is nothing more I want than to balance these three core aspects in a complete life, in order to ascend into a new wave and eras of thinking, breathing, and even living.

This is more than just a paradox of what can be given in life, such as the need for purpose in life, or for love and the self-giving, loving others, and appreciating self, or even the lust or determination of life and love and backing up that purpose with the push to believe and excel in all aspects of life. Life intertwines with love and what it can give, these both then intertwine with the core/primitive as well as evolved needs of lust or for the will of survival and determination. I'm going briefly into what I believe are my basis for living and ascending from past thinking, and evolving the human mind, body, soul, and enlightening the human spirit.

I derive these things from books, movies, songs, art, signals, signs, analogy of life, observation of human interactions, lectures, other people's philosophies, conversations, texts, emails, and random sayings that I pick up for any number of reasons. Such examples come from: The Celestine Prophecy, The Four Agreements, The Road Less Traveled, The Matrix, C.R.A.Z.Y., the five D's, lessons from Mr. Colbert, Mrs. Good, Mrs. Gelegan, Miss Rodriguez, Ann and Ardie Bryant, people who have changed my course of living, people from my love life and my own course in life itself thus far. These are just to name a few. I don't need to simply refer evidence of such evolution due to the fact that they are as much about common sense and human logic.

I might have started once before, only leading into the highlights of this complete life I seek, but as I try to understand my own ascension, my own journey weaves more into this world, leading more to find the raw emotions of love.

Right now, I am seeking to find and understand the essence of love, because it is the directional compass of truthful emotions. I can see this love is more prominent within others due to the need of that emotion I grow to find within myself. I know that once love is found within myself, I can maintain my internal compass and live to seek the next steps in life with such guidance. I start with me and go from there.

As a travel more along this path, I elaborate what I witness and record in my memory and writings the findings of my own journey. When I am ready and capable of leading a strong, assured, confident position in my own life, I will show everyone a world that I understand to be the essence of any life and with purpose.

Love. It knows no bounds, and I know I am one of those people to show others that this is so. My capabilities of love ascend more than most people, with such hope and positivity, even though I can get lost at times. Even through my own childhood and adolescence, my love was the epitome of something so great that I believe some people around me resisted such love. In this resistance, I remember that even in my peace and ways of thinking, could not be bonded with by this yet-to-be-evolved way of thinking. Through my suffering, I had to wait for the right moment to find such love and bear the pain of the lack thereof in my life.

However, I've gained so much more strength in love that when I'm in that place of warmth and love, I know the possibilities of that love can become a infinite place of solace; limitless emotional capabilities that can make anyone feel lighter than air. For instance, like Buddhist monks who meditate and can find love beyond bounds, showing happiness in their every moment to following their beliefs in Taoism. Their sense of calmness, wisdom, and content breathe life in a lighter manner. With such emotions shown, this balance given can provide a fuller life. I might not understand completely the ways of how all love and life can be, but in turn, someday soon I will understand that life will be better.

Hope. This reference of emotion in lust/passion will give me the drive to look for life in love. This will give me the need to constantly evolve and mature myself in love and to learn life. Within all the interconnectedness I see, when I can soon understand and believe in me, is when I can understand and believe what IS and that it makes life worthwhile. In my methods, I try to understand everything set forth upon my actions and that they are meant for a reason. They lead not into uncertainty; however, the emotion that is set forth when an action/event is taken (i.e. - sadness, anger, happiness, love, etc.) will be the path that evolves from that direction of intent through such emotion.

What this means is that like when sending the action of love in the world, actions and intent will go along a path of love until the next emotion for events. Many overlap through time, and many go along the same line of actions. This is where life leads to be complex. The hope (emotion) I have that can drive me to do all in my will power(action), like finding self-love(intent), to become a better person(future course of actions). Through this focus, I can become aware that I'm more than capable to create a better life for myself. If signaled through a unity of focused emotions and awareness of all of these, I can soon figure out what leads to my ascension.

Letting go. Releasing my overt control on life. I cannot see reality of the human experience in full effect until I step back and let go of my fears, old habits, and deep-rooted traumas. Without letting go of this and to overcome the giving up on myself and giving into what others believe, instead of believing myself, I know my life that was built up in this chaos cannot supersede itself without realizing what I need to breakdown and release from my immortal soul. Life is, in essence, the natural flow of the human experience.

Throughout my struggles, I have to let go of this fear and what my many past situations led to what my emotions enabled. In order to mature, I have to evolve. I have to "let go" and see what's right in front of me, instead of the jaded version I wish to believe in myself. I have to realize that with these conditioned fears, I have to bring back the confidence I had before in the world. I need to trust in myself and in others that by letting go of that overt control over others and letting my life be taken in by the flow of my own human experience, it will lead me to more happiness and less pain/obstacles in life. Taking ownership of my own life and being clear of what that reality of life is in itself, will define me to become mature and enlightened.

In the sense of this all, I work on myself to live in harmony. I only cater to free my pulls from the reins that I hold myself back from in life. One day, it will be clear to me:
(1) What love and self-love can truly reveal to the highest degree within life,
(2) How hope (lust/passion) can drive the confidence I have to be fearless in life, and
(3) How life will be more content if I just let go and be free from fears.

This is my way to get better...

The Power To Love On All Levels

Again, here is my epiphany.

Am I designed to fully let go of my mortal self and find solace in the higher vibrations that are within me? This is a question that cannot be answered without merely letting go...

I always give love, I always show love, I always try to give compassion towards others. That does increase ten-fold when I'm interested in the woman and I naturally become actively aware of how much love I can give, without warning.

Whether it is my allure, charm, or enchantment that I have, my platinum heart and the souls that I can bear out themselves to the core in such a quick moment, or my quick-to-love unreasoned self that sought love in others rather than within myself, I believe it is all of these that combine within me. These must be worked to give that greater love, especially by letting go of all fear and become fearless to give into love. Once this can be done, I can be one of many to create that love and have the power to uniquely give this love on all levels.

It is definitely time for me to really a see if my love can become the real power that cannot be surmounted with doubt, pain, angst, resistance or hate. For this nth-teenth time, I realize that I am an intense lover. I don't just mean that in the sense of lust or passion, but I mean that I also do so when it comes to giving all in a relationship, friendship, and for family.

When I have fully given into the power of true love, and when that day my soul can unite with the other, those who have come to know my love, will understand and believe more than anyone else that love can truly conquer all...

It's not delusion or subjugation to the loss of love that invokes such words within me....it's the epiphany that I can become more than just a mere mortal in a realm where love is possible on more than one level...