I'm learning so much about what I've done, what I do now, where I am situated at this moment...
It's like the entire world is opening up to me. It feels as if I really should work out myself on my own, work on my maturity and soon enable all of that knowledge to have a stable life. The decision is on me. And here I go...
I don't feel anymore hurt or scorn...I know that I am forgiving as ever towards those that I have in my past. In admitting to letting go of my heart's fears and just letting it flow, everything seems to travel in lighter energies. I feel happy and with less pain in my life.
I mean, even though I have things that I still must sort out in my life right now, it all seems like smaller tasks compared to the big picture...and I'm ready...for the bigger picture...
There's nothing more that I want than to be someone who will prove that LOVE takes flight out of my heart. I can see where I get my love within me.
Being afraid IS silly!
Artistically....who better to feel feelings than artists, performers, singers, musicians, dancers, poets, and all those in the creative world. In these minds, particularly those I've met in dancing, I find it easy to open up to people, find respect and celebration in this field. Dancers and Choreographers alike, collaborate and find endless ways to create such a camaraderie and deliver with such emotion. Which is why I'm a choreographer and dancer myself. I feel things and in so many ways I find outlets through my artistic sides in my dances, music, singing, poems and drawings. It brings out a trust and truth in me that I can't explain. I find ways that cure me of my ailments such as sadness or loneliness or even heartbreak...Guess it's just a life of an artist...
With each page turned, I'm just seeking out the answers in the flow that I'm in. As I am synchronistically bound to delve into matters of my own "hell" and prevail, I make sure to provide myself with an endless amount of self-love and worth to my heart and soul. I cannot shut out the light I have inside of me, nor should I do so. It is a reason that makes life worth living...
Many paths I have crossed...and nearly in my own paths...I almost dove into my old patterns. From the full force of such things, I found the strength within me to resist it with full force. Maybe not with as much awareness and without a drama or two, but I found solace knowing that I could defeat my own old habits. I'm also trying to resist temptations within me, but I'm sure that I will prevail in this arena as well.
My Life is going well, and I'm much more content over my own actions. I won't let anything bring me down any longer. I just proved to myself this past week that I can really do that. I am so proud of myself. :D
