Lately, I've been having Nightmares...However, I don't wake up in a cold sweat, heart pounding out of my chest, abrupt waking and jumping out of my bed....It's like I just wake up with something looming over me. Not only that, I am feeling forever lost in my ways. It's nice that I found a place in someone's heart, but my goals, my aspirations, my career, and my life....I just seem to want more.....More work, more passion, more to do around the area....and I also feel like I'm drowning in my slow-paced town.
Must I work harder to clean out my life?
Must I find a "job-for-now," so I can proceed to earn more just to get out of the rest of my debt and move out of my little town?
Must I prepare myself to earn my heart's true desires?
What exactly am I searching for? Maybe that's where I should start...But how??
What am I waiting for? What is this looming feeling in me?
So much in my life is soo positive, but I'm slowly finding underlying subconscious feelings of danger....
Am I afraid of my relationship?
Am I subconsciously sabotaging my own life?
Am I just creating drama in order to feed into my lack of a livelihood?
What exactly can I do to stop this circle of insecurities??
I have a great job that I love and cherish...
I have a wonderful, perfectly compatible lover and future partner for life...
I have a secure family and living space...
I have a conscious level of what my ailments, worries and hardships are...
I have a plan to survive and just be happy...
I do my laundry
I clean my (mom's) house
I am responsible
I exercise
I do everything that makes me happy
So why is it that I still feel like I have something I am preparing for??
Hmmm....I'm light-hearted...but these nightmares are kind of scaring me....
Or are these Dreams of a Challenging Prophecy?
