Before I stop pondering any longer and release my relentless efforts of trying to love someone who has chosen to move on, I would like to say this:
You have changed my world. The memory of you and of us I will never forget. Your love I cannot forget. I hope with all my heart your life becomes more fulfilled with love, life and all the growth of happiness and joy. As I forgive myself for all the setbacks of my own insecurities, I want nothing more than to see you happy.
I know that I must move on...and finally let go.
The grasp of what I've held onto isn't reasonable to keep. By letting my heart set you free, I can be content with the life I have now and have a love find its way into my soul.
Whichever way that will be, I know that what we had will be a memory set to keep forever in my mind. The remembrance and knowing that I once loved an amazing, inspiring woman who has a passion to change the world, the determination to be upfront and honest about herself towards others, and a sense of compassion that shone past all of my boundaries and truly did heal my soul, even after the fact that we weren't together.
Before realizing my stupidity of being so scared to feel such an effortless and intense emotion, thinking that "this is too surreal and too easy to really feel like real love," I couldn't handle the pressure and I caved-in. Realizing all too late, after the fact, I know now I must let go.
I truly loved once before in my life, and you were a part of that love. All of that, now must be a memory and I must let go of any efforts in salvaging anything because that has already passed.
Maybe one day, you can forgive me and we can truly set peace between us. I wish you the best in life, M.
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And here it is...One of my heroes, whose words of wisdom inspire me...
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Sometimes, in relentless efforts to find the person we love we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out so many beautiful things simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns. Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words for you will find rewarding happiness not with the man you love but the man who loves you more. The best lovers are those capable of loving from a distance far enough to allow the person to grow, but never too far to feel the love deep within your being.
To let go of someone doesn’t mean you have to stop loving, It only means that you allow that person to find her own happiness without expecting her to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but it is also setting yourself free from all bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart. Do not let the bitterness eat away your strength and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to dishearten you, but rather let yourself grow with wisdom in bearing it. You may find a peace in just loving someone from a distance not expecting anything in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but never can give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today.
There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and soon becomes a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just a friendship, we start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still rewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves.
You don’t have to forget someone you love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving.
Don’t let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well.
Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow. If you lose love that doesn’t mean that you failed in love. Cry if you have to, but make it sure that the tears wash away the hurt and bitterness that the past has left you. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray that it may be the love hat will stay and last a lifetime.
There are two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other through everything is a miracle.
There is no mistake so painful that love cannot forgive. no past so bitter that love cannot accept.
And no love so little that we cannot start all over with.
Love and Life by Albert Einstein. (1879-1955)
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