My Journey, My Life...

"As I walk through the valley in the shadow of death, I take a look at my life and realize..." - Gangsta's Paradise by Coolio

Let me explain why I write these blogs...
Yes, this blog is a tool for my ventilation, my creativity, my emotional baggage and everything and anything in-between, but it's more than just a diary, journal, blog, or just to escape into my own thoughts and have it be publicized in this manner. It is also a journey I wish to partake. It provides a guidance of my memories, reflection and reference for myself to repair my traumas and heal my soul to grow in maturity. What I say in this blog is by logic, common sense, (sometimes) facts, my observations, and through my own eyes, ideas and thoughts. Though I might get into some quite intimate/descriptive details of my life as well as my shared experiences with others (eg- exes, friends, family member, acquaintances, and even strangers), I feel my experiences and the knowledge and understanding of my everyday life must be accrued on this blog, despite the publicity. Sometimes I even forget I have an audience; thus, this blog is more for me and my reference so I can understand my own world and the lives that I eventually impact.

Even in the reality I put forth in what I blog, I can lose sight of my own self (when I am being deeply negative or extremely naive or any numerous other moments in life) and develop issues like all people. Thus, for everyone else, I only come to publicize my thoughts, actions, feelings, and words to provide such insight into my world. Other people who deal with their own personal battles can choose to gain insight from another person's findings and words like mine. Then again, it doesn't matter if you choose to find this amusing or at all insightful. I just choose to share, like all significant people, all that I have to offer in my words so that maybe people can find a place where they can relate to and find meanings in their lives. The purpose of my blog are the Three L's: Life. Love. Lust. This blog is to give not only myself an insight of my experiences, but also to bring that to others.

It is just like someone who is very close to my heart (and she is still) once said, "Unless you’ve lived my life, don’t judge me because you don’t know, never have, and never will know every little thing and detail about me..." This is true and is spoken with much fervor for what is believed within her. Now, I know I don't have the know-all, be-all essential information that causes such arrogance or self-righteousness within me to start believing that I completely "KNOW SOMEONE" or can be an expert to give any advice. Which is the reason why I can only come from a perspective of my own. With her impact of words, I can only explain my reasoning of such things that have impacted my life over a slice of a moment that I had reading this. I am still searching to find who I am and as I understand the world, other people, and life itself.

In this case, I can't live another person's life nor do I try to intentionally and righteously judge a person. Details of someone's life can only be witnessed through experiences shared with those other persons. And even then, it is still a vague experience, unless the connection and depth of the experience is resonant to one, few, or all parties involved. The point I'm making is that people decide for their own life whether or not others will impact their lives as well as the reflections that others have within themselves by experiencing a moment with another person. I admit to the fact that even in my generalizations and assumptions, facts and observations, and even the perception of life I have are only my own to experience. I don't know anyone except myself, and can only experience what is inside of me. However, some people don't see that sometimes, people impact other people's lives. (Kinda like the contagiousness of a smile...)

Therefore, I log and document most of many experiences in this public journal, knowing full well that I want to impact others in my search to understand my own philosophies of life and show a bit of understanding of my life. Whether that can provide insight, courage, amusement, disgust, or otherwise, is up to you...

This is just my journey of my life...