Lost...

I don't know where I should be....
My heart wants to be free of this lock on a love I have from my recent love...
My soul heeds the warnings of where my life can possibly be if I return to my old habits...
My mind runs with a thousand questions, thoughts, analytical discrepancies, and disillusioned scenarios...
My body yearns for the security of my self-love and a warm body to hug and be next to...
When will I stop being emotionally-bound as this Pisces that I am and reason to be logical when it comes to relationships...
Where am I going with Crystal?? I smile with much glee because I have fun and ease from whatever suffering I'm putting off...and when she's not paying much attention to me, I seek it...damnit...old habits are hard to be rid of...
Where is this going with An?? I'm in a jam with her, because I don't know where its going...plus, she's one party animal...I don't know where I'd take it...
Where will I be with Maribel?? She tells me things then falls back on her reasoning...being afraid to show me how she really feels...I know that she does feel it...but why can't she just let me in?? I have to let her go...it causes me enough suffering knowing that what I know is right there I just can't have because she won't let me in....I'm sorry Maribel, but I have to let you go... :'(

So where do I go now?? If I can find out me, maybe I'll get a closer feeling to what is within...